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The voice that sprung from my throat was unfamiliar as I introduced myself to a classroom of White students. Its tone was high-pitched and enthusiastic鈥攁 far cry from my naturally soft raspiness.

It wasn鈥檛 the first time I was unsettled by being the sole Black person in a room, but these moments had a profound effect on me. Without thought, I鈥檇 shifted my demeanor and speech. My thoughts were calculated, quickened, and in search of the 鈥渞ight鈥� things to say. The words poured from my mouth pointed and stiff. I enunciated each consonant and vowel, and stressed each syllable. The production of it all, though a departure from my normal self, was seamless.

It was the first time I noticed I had code-switched.

Admittedly, I was later ashamed for abandoning my native tongue鈥擜frican American Vernacular English鈥攁nd sense of self in an effort to assimilate into a space of teaching and learning, particularly because, as the instructor, I was an authority figure.

Code-switching is an age-old practice that is familiar to many Black people鈥攁nd people of color鈥攊n the United States. Though when sociolinguist Einar Haugen coined the term in 1954, it was to describe language alternation, or the mixing of two or more languages, or dialects. Albeit, the practice had been known since the early 20^th century. Linguists studied code-switching to examine when it occurs, while sociologists studied why it occurs. The findings differed across ethnic and racial demographics. According to Bridging Differences: Effective Intergroup Communication, code-switching facilitates several functions: to mask fluency and memory in a second language, go between formal and informal conversation, exert power over another, and align and unify among familiar group in certain settings.

In the 鈥�70s, the gained traction in African-American spaces鈥攁cademic and otherwise鈥攖o describe the relationships between people of color鈥攑articularly Black people鈥攁nd the colonial other. In the text, Language and Interracial Communication in the United States: Speaking in Black and White, George B. Ray describes African-American code-switching as 鈥渁 skill that holds benefits in relation to the way success is often measured in institutional and professional settings.鈥� And though, at times, the performance is superficially understood as a lingual phenomenon that often occurs vis-a-vis a range of social settings, similar to my experience in the classroom, for many African Americans code-switching is a skillset that is integral to our survival.

The late W.E.B Dubois, world-renowned scholar and civil rights advocate, alluded to the concept of code-switching more than a century ago, when he wrote about African Americans reckoning with dual identities鈥擝lackness and Americanness鈥攚hile navigating everyday Whiteness in his most celebrated book, The Souls of Black Folk:

鈥淚t is a peculiar sensation, this double-consciousness, this sense of always looking at one鈥檚 self through the eyes of others, of measuring one鈥檚 soul by the tape of a world that looks on in amused contempt and pity. One ever feels his two-ness, an American, a Negro; two souls, two thoughts, two unreconciled strivings; two warring ideals in one dark body, whose dogged strength alone keeps it from being torn asunder.鈥�

Dubois speaks to how this sense of being is a testament of resilience. However, code-switching goes beyond 鈥渇eeling.鈥� For African Americans, it is a performative expression that has not only helped some of us thrive in mainstream culture鈥攊t has helped many of us simply survive.

I consider the 鈥渢alk鈥� many African American parents have with their children to warn them of, and prepare them for potential encounters with law enforcement, an element of code-switching. The conversation involves clear directives on how to switch up behavior when approached by police. It goes a little something like this:

鈥淭urn down loud music.鈥�

鈥淎djust your posture.鈥�

鈥淜eep your hands visible.鈥�

鈥淓xercise good manners.鈥�

鈥淪peak properly.鈥�

Such conversations are a response to the dominant culture鈥檚 attitude toward Blackness鈥擝lack people, Black culture. Unfortunately, for Black citizens, such a perverse attitude remains present during quite a few brushes with the law. A recent study conducted by Stanford researchers revealed that experience traffic stops at significantly higher rates than their White counterparts, and were 20% more likely to be ticketed by authorities. Mere traffic run-ins can escalate and sometimes result in death for Black people.

In the case of Sandra Bland and Philando Castile鈥攚hose police encounters were recorded and publicly consumed鈥擨 often wonder how code-switching may have preserved their lives. If for one moment, like myself standing in the center of that classroom, they had ordered their words, tweaked their voice, or code-switched in the more ironic way I鈥檝e only read about, when the enslaved and the oppressed dumbed down their literacy and downplayed their dignity when faced with the crack of the slaver鈥檚 whip or the scrag of Jim Crow鈥檚 noose.

The ability to code-switch back into our Black selves is another way we subsist, feel whole and in some regard redeemed. Derrick Harriell, a poet who is the director of M.F.A. Creative Writing Program and associate professor of English and African American Studies at the University of Mississippi, like me, says he experienced personal disappointment when he switched up being himself.

鈥淚 know certain forms of code-switching have been responsible for saving our lives as Black people and key to our survival, so in that way I鈥檓 not judgmental,鈥� Harriell says. 鈥淚 understand that my ability to not code-switch is a privilege, but it鈥檚 also a privilege my people died for, therefore for me, I have to [be myself] or else I feel as if I鈥檓 doing my ancestors a disservice.鈥�

Harriell affirms that for a number of Black Americans, despite the conviction of 鈥渟elling out鈥� oneself in an effort to assimilate into White culture, code-switching is a form of pointed privilege and power.

The privilege speaks to the once-denied prerogative to be audibly and visibly one鈥檚 authentic self, or masked and acculturated for one鈥檚 own advantage. However, how we wield that power varies from person to person.

Dr. Dione Mahaffey, an Atlanta-based business psychologist and coach, says the very notion of code-switching is draining, but asserts that the practice has been most beneficial as she progressed in her career.

鈥淚t鈥檚 exhausting, but I wouldn鈥檛 go as far to call it inauthentic, because it鈥檚 an authentic part of the Black American experience,鈥� Mahaffey says. 鈥淐ode-switching does not employ an inauthentic version of self, rather, it calls upon certain aspects of our identity in place of others, depending on the space or circumstance. It鈥檚 exhausting because we can actually feel the difference.鈥�

For Mahaffey, code-switching is about exchange, a give and take of sorts. Much of her participation is predicated on how much of herself she is willing to negotiate. She says she doesn鈥檛 share the things that make her a dynamic woman, or the remarkable professional she is.

鈥淚 save that for my village,鈥� she says. In the professional sphere, Mahaffey flips those feelings on their head. She has mastered the performative niceties of code-switching and uses it to her own advantage, particularly when working in White spaces. The business coach says she 鈥渃onsider[s] double consciousness to be a part of the laws of power: Play the perfect courtier, and grace your way to the top.鈥�

She uses it to get her way, Mahaffey says of code-switching. 

鈥淸White folks] don鈥檛 see me coming because I鈥檝e made them comfortable. I blend in enough to get my way, to learn what I need, to secure what I came for and then I go on and create and build in an unconventional way.鈥�

While I am unsure that code-switching in a classroom of fresh-faced White students was disarming or caught them off guard like Mahaffey鈥檚 did her colleagues, I am certain it caught me off guard and complicated self-doubt.
My code-switching in the classroom occurred because I doubted that my authentic self was enough to be in the room, and that further complicated how I felt about myself. Because I鈥檓 now more consciously aware of the impact code-switching had on me, I鈥檓 almost certain I won鈥檛 do it again. However, I realize that code-switching, for some, is not about assimilating but surviving, and well, I鈥檓 not sure how to feel about that.